Thursday evening and Friday morning….
Sister frustration and brother unpeace are guests in the house of my work(ship).
I know that their visits always contain a deep message but as usual we do our game:
I first try to run away from them and escape into some “important” activities or some hyperclicks here and there….I can’t run for long and they get me.
I surrender to “Hey I’m frustrated and not in peace. Don’ know the hack why but I gonna find it out”.
Sister frustration and brother unpeace: two indicators for deep messages regarding the creative - the Creation process.
I surf my Innernet and first hit a wall that makes be blind and deaf. The feeling I read is another known indicator and after running some re-cognition awareness bots I identify the indicator as “The Guilt Zone”.
I feel guilty for a bunch of many reasons….but I know that’s what guilt does….it’s a meme producing machine once running. One Guilt meme grows some couple more and soon guilt is all over the place pissing me off like ants on a hectic mission. The guilt memes want to force me to solve them one by one, “sin by sin”. I have learned the Art of “war” with these soldiers by now and know how to get them all at once:
First memedical treatment: Connecting with forgiveness, Okness, Lovedness – healing of the onco guilt meme.
Prefered way of doing that: As a personal reformed Christian I connect to my brother Jesus who is the embodiment of forgiveness. Not because there is something like a sin before which has to be forgiven and Jesus is the only superman who can do that….No, simply because his presence gives me this feeling of being loved – unconditional!! When I perform my self pity / self blaming show, Jesus sits usually in front of me with this loving and amused sparkle in his eyes. He obviously enjoys my little show and after a while he gets me to do the same.
Good! Broke through the wall of guilt with da’ brothers help and can see and listen again.
Bumm…there she is – the deep message indicated by frustration and unpeace:
For many month I’ve been working primary with the tool of the Contemputer. That’s a mix of a computer and contemplation. The computer is needed to interact with the media sphere in a bi-directional way / Input/Output. The contemplation is needed to surf, observe, make sense of the fluctuations in the Noosphere.
The focus of the last many month has been on mental/cyber English development while I sit in the body Germany. I work virtual without having to much contact with actual bodies except the couple thousand trees that live here with me. For a while it was OK to work that way and needed but I don’t wanna go on with that. I need people and bodies to workship with.
So—strategy changed – once again to a former intuition and I have my focus now on the German part again. I’ll meet with a couple related organizations of my region from next week on and get some local projects and networks going.
I continue the story of “Episode 0.5 – Genesys sprouting” now the German way and called the Website blog cms @ http://germination.mothership-gaia.org/blog/ : Germination Blog (German Nation Blog).
I am full of joy again and it feels like a blank new start and me like a fresh excited child. I leave the english part (of cause) incomplete and not yet coherent but come back to this somewhen later.
The story continues @ http://germination.mothership-gaia.org/blog/
